Cry me a River

MISS HIS HIGH VOICEE :( Love this cover, watched it again the other day omg i just felt like sharing it! :D

About today, band was first. Omg i played my solo during practice though i left early at 11.15, so yeah i thought i wouldn't need to. Okay i don't mean to be obsessing with my solo but i'm just very concerned about it!! LOL YEAH. Alright, so we left halfway (gladly for me, i was kinda frustrated at my section) then i Anita told me that Danielle was waiting for me outside! So we went for lunch at Golden Rooster altogether! :D Unfortunately Danielle doesn't quite know all the band peeps but that's okay hahahah. Afterwards we took 66 from coro ALL THE WAY TO THE SCIENCE CENTRE. Gosh the journey was freaking long! We were late but Ms Ong wasn't very upset thankfully, so yeah met Rachella and 4/6 there. Still feel a little sad that we couldn't go with the class! :( It's like only the 3 of us from 4/4 lol but it was okay lah. Not very interesting i would say, we didn't even get to see our bacteria thingy GLOW :( Has to be after a day haha.

We ended early at about 3? Or slightly later than that, it was supposed to end at 3.45pm gosh. Danielle had to rush off so Rachella and I walked around a bit before leaving! :) The place is quite cool i have to say, lol i can't rmb to last time i've been to the Science Centre, probably sec 1? Yeah, after we were satisfied we went to grab smth at Macs! We bought McFlurry woohoo, and she got fries too :) Left AT 3.45, can you believe it?? So as usual i planned to take a cab home and so Rachella asked me to drop her somewhere convenient :) AHH we waited so long for a cab to come! Every time one comes by, it's either changing shift or it's freaking green but there's someone inside! Then when we walked further up to look at the buses, some guy came up front and stole the cab that was supposed to be ours :( BUNCH OF FALSE HOPES, SUPER FUNNY HAHAHAH. So i we both got off at my house and i showed her the bus stop! :) YEAH THAT'S ABOUT IT. Yay i'm going for Nic's bio tuition tmr, hope i can find my way there lol and that i won't be too tired.

Okay, so aside all these, while i was having dinner with my family at Great World, something happened and i REALLY HATE IT. I can't describe it, the only way to the describe it is that it can't be described! Just CAN'T describe the devastation. HORRID FEELING. I don't even wanna talk about it but i just don't have anyone to tell. All along, for like more than half my life i was aware of it, i just like try not to think about it and put it at the back my mind. But GOSH when i came face to face with it today, oh my goodness it's just so difficult to accept. I just wanted to stop listening! Can't believe i'm expected to not cry, HOW'S IT POSSIBLE?!?! Basically there's no way i can allow my mom, my siblings or anyone else in my family to know, it's too worrying. I was with Min, and i'm really glad she was there lol she cried too when she saw me cry. IT'S JUST SO HARD! I had to go back and pretend nothing happened so we just walked around and waited patiently for me to stop looking like a clown. Very surprisingly i managed! But i cried in the cab otw home, no one noticed, i don't think i ever tried this hard to stop myself from crying, because i really wanted to. It's so unfair that we must be the ones who know while the other side is just CLUELESS about everything, why can't things just be NORMAL?! Omg i get the MOST HORRIBLE SINKING FEELING IN THE WORLD when i recall that scene, it's just sooooo UNFAIR! Okay i shall stop now i'm gonna cry again. Bye i promise to pray before i sleep.

-Sophia