HEY, so today pretty much sucked. Well it didn't suck, it just wasn't good. Nope. Lots of tears i still can't believe it. As in, i saw it coming but i didn't know that it would really come true. When the truth hits you it really hits you hard. I didn't understand that at first, then i was close to feeling the exact same thing and i just felt horrible. It's a syf thing. But i was pretty shocked at the number of people who came over to give me a hug when they saw i was crying. Like seriously woah. Goshh i don't know what my section's gonna do with 5 sec ones this year. We're gonna have to guide them, me, without all the sec fours. That's insane. (kay nicole's still around but, haix)
Well okay i cried in front of everyone and now everyone thinks i'm not going for syf. I feel like a loser who needs someone to tell her "it's okay". Lol i really hate that. It's like how i don't like people telling me "jy" in a audition game. Well i've always known that band has alot of politics and that sometimes when band members themselves say that band is selfish and biased, i don't fully disagree. However i've never really wanted to face that fact. Cause i love band. But it seems to be coming across as a pretty obvious fact now. These are my true feelings, i'll have to express them somehow. Gosh why must they be like this. The section is not complete with missing members :( The band is not complete without everyone as well :( Don't know how i'm gonna last this year after april. It's not so much about feeling humiliated now, though i'm gonna take awhile to get over it. I'LL JUST REMEMBER TO ALWAYS CLOSE MY EYES AND PRAY :D
-Sophia
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